Recently I read Looking Like the Enemy by Mary Matsuda Gruenewald which tells the author's story about her life in an American internment camp during World War II. She relates how she struggled with her feelings of guilt because her parents were Japanese and bitterness because she was imprisoned solely for that reason.
One night, Gruenewald's feelings overflowed, and as she confessed them to her mother, she was surprised to discover that her mother dealt with similar feelings. She asked her mother how she was able to carry on, be kind to others, and live joyously. Her mother responded that she wanted to live in a way that she could be proud of when twenty years had passed.
(I wish I had the exact quote, but I loaned the book to my mother.)
This advice resonated with me. I want to live in such a way that when I look back on my life, I can be proud of the way I handled things. More so, I want to live so that my Savior will be pleased with my life. I need the constant reminder that what is happening now will not continue forever, and one day I will look back on these times. Will I be happy with my reactions? Or will I be disappointed?
Have you ever thought about how you will look back on your life?
First, I am a child of God, adopted into His family through the blood of His Son Jesus Christ. Second, I am helpmeet to my husband John of sixteen years. Third, I am mother to Sarah Beth who is ten years old, to Daniel who turned nine in February, to Rachel who turned seven at the end of January, to Mary who turned five in December, and to Hannah who turned one in February.