Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Disappointed...Again

At my appointment yesterday, once again I was disappointed in my hopes and plans to have this baby. While I was more ready than last week, my doctor did not think I was ready enough to be induced. I know that my old doctor would have induced me at this stage of readiness, and I did try to change his mind. But he wouldn't be persuaded. However, he did strip my membranes. I wish he would have told me beforehand because I would have asked him not to. I don't think he understands that I don't want to go into labor spontaneously; I want to be induced. I listed all my reasons for being induced here, and here are my worries about going into labor at home.
  • John works half an hour from home, so it will take him at least that long to get here.
  • Everyone who has volunteered to keep our children, if my parents aren't here to help, live half an hour or more away.
  • My labors tend to be short, between four and six hours, but that's when I'm induced. Will they be longer or shorter without Pitocin? If they're shorter, will I make it the hour to the hospital where my doctor delivers babies.
  • Of course, if my doctor isn't on call, what does it matter where I deliver, really? If a stranger is going to deliver my baby, it may as well be at the small hospital in my town, don't you think?
  • I just don't do well without a plan, and it stresses me out thinking that I may go into labor.
  • I do not want to have this baby in the car.
We do have a plan, assuming that I don't have this baby before next week. My doctor scheduled an induction for Thursday when I will be 41 weeks. He did not schedule an appointment to check me beforehand, so he can't change his mind. It just seems so long until then. And I haven't gone that far before. With Sarah Beth, I was induced three days after my due date. With my other two, I was induced at 39 weeks.

Once again, I'm left with trying to figure out what I'm going to do with this extra week I've been given. More cookies? I'm almost done with Christmas shopping. I can't think of anywhere to go with my children. And I can't get motivated to work on these boxes that I still need to unpack. *Sigh* Do you have any suggestions?

6 comments:

Kristin said...

How frustrating! Tea and a good book? Praying for a safe delivery!

Anonymous said...

God's planning and timing are perfect, don't be nervous. Jeremiah 29:11. I know on this side of heaven it's hard to comprehend. I will pray for comfort for you. If you're up for it you are more then welcome to come down for a farm day. I bet the kids haven't had that yet in these past weeks. :)
-Shannon Reyneveld-

Audrey said...

I know how you feel. Audrey was a week late. I was very bored. I read 1500 pages that week-no other children so I could do it and Greg worked an hour away. Thankfully, I went into labor before he left for work.
The Dr. should have told you before that he wouldn't induce you..he seems to do a lot of what he wants and not much cooperation with you. I'll be praying that God gives you the endurance and peace-of-mind you need. ~Nikki

Aurie{OurGoodLife} said...

So sorry!! Since my second was a c-section, I can't imagine not knowing when the baby would come and trying to plan for child care and actually getting to the hospital!

praying for you, that He will cover you in peace!

Laura said...

I just wrote a long comment and it got lost in cyberspace somewhere when I tried to post it. Oh well. My basic point was that I'll be praying for all of the details. I know that it's hard planning for a baby's arrival...especially when you have other children and when you're in a new place. I'm in the same boat. I have some of the same concerns that you do...getting to the hospital on time, not having the baby in the car, no wanting to call someone in the middle of the night, etc. As much as I don't want to have my baby in the car though, I know that God is sovereign and if it is His will for that to happen then ultimately I wouldn't want it any other way. I know that you feel the same way. Though I think we'll both feel much better about our births after it's all over! We'll be praying, and I can't wait to see pictures and hear your birth story!

Tracey said...

Hoping that these days will go quickly and that you'll be able to get some rest and "relaxing" in before this baby arrives. Trusting that God's timing will be perfect!